I learned something about myself today. Well maybe I didn't learn it... I have know it by the feelings that I get. Yet, today is the day that I am choosing to recognize it for what it is and dig down deeper.
Every time I have to ask someone a question regarding helping me I get nervous. And not just a little but you know that nervous that you get when you can feel your stomach turn, your heart starts beating faster and you almost could go throw up. I get SOOO nervous.
The question I have is why?
This is what I have been asking myself for that last half hour or so.
The thing is... it is not just big questions but little ones. Anything that has to do with me not being able to do it on my own. If I have to borrow something, if I need help researching a product, if I need advise... the list goes on and on.
I think that this is something that I am going to need to dig into, pray about and seek out what I am fearful of.
Matthew 6:27 - Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
Kelsie, I am not sure you should look at this necessarily as a bad thing. This just shows that you have respect for peoples time and effort on your behalf. I think it's good to be aware of this. I always try to teach my kids that when you ask for something you always return bigger. So if I borrow an egg from the neighbors I return a dozen to show my gratitude. So, I think it's good to be sensative to others in this area. I get this subject so much, on my part it's a little bit of pride that creeps in having to ask. Even if it's an egg from the neighbor~ha!
ReplyDeleteOh Girl!!! I'm glad you are reflecting on this...this is good for us all to know about ourselves and it is good ole pride that keeps us from asking for help...pride can be disguised as sooo many things..I'm just learning this myself as well. God made us to need HIM and the "body of Christ"...that would mean we need eachother even though it is much more "safe" to do it on our own. Love ya girl and you are an amazing person. We are all growing together and learning.
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